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Lately I've had the urge to go back to work. I don’t think I ever truly expected to be a stay at home mom for this long, but I wanted to give it a try. Right around Moe’s first birthday, I started to get the itch to look for a job. But I was having fun with my mommy friends. Moe was at a fairly easy age and playdates were still mostly about the moms. Plus, Jeff and I knew we wanted to have another child pretty soon, so it didn’t make sense to go back.
I got pregnant with Jelly, and I knew I wanted to be home with her for at least a year (6 months if the right thing came along). Then Moe was diagnosed and we started his in-home ABA therapy. It became clear that I wasn’t going back to work anytime soon. Only this time, being a stay at home mom wasn’t fun anymore. I was trapped in the house with a newborn and an autistic toddler, with therapists coming and going all day. I couldn’t get out to see my mommy friends, and playdates weren’t all that fun anymore as Moe’s differences became more and more apparent.
That was a year ago. In the Fall, Moe will be back to school full time, 8:30 to 2:40 every day. Although Jelly has some pretty wicked separation anxiety right now, she’s at an age where I’d feel comfortable leaving her in day care or with a nanny. At the same time, it is nice to have some free time with her (it is so much easier the second time around) to go to My Gym or music classes. Moe’s old playmates are all starting preschool in the fall as well, so we’ve been talking about starting playdates with the younger siblings. Being a stay at home mom might be fun again.
I’d love to find a part time job (or full time with flexible hours/work from home) – something that will allow me to pick Moe up from school and have some time for Jelly but also allow me to get back some of my old brain before I’ve lost it completely. But how do you find something like that? And am I just playing a game of “the grass is always greener?” Furthermore, does anyone out there need a former high-tech product manager with an MBA and good writing skills? Resume available upon request.