Nobody reads this blog but me. I'm reluctant to promote it, even to close friends and family, until it has had a chance to take shape. I need to find my voice. Plus, I want to make it pretty, add the right links, tag everything correctly, and do all the things that make a good blog.
I'm not sure what it would be like to actually have any followers. I might be more likely to update on a regular basis. It would be nice for people to see what is going on with me, and especially with Moe, without having to tell the story over and over. I might be able to get more involved in the community of bloggers out there, especially women and "mommy bloggers." I know I haven't even scratched the surface of who is out there.
When I was in high school, I kept a diary. I haven't looked at those pages in years, though I'm sure they are still at my parent's house. I'm sure I would find some of the passages hilarious now: the overdramatic feelings of a teenager. But at the time, of course, they were real, and I could be truly honest about them because no one was looking. This is, of course, the challenge with a blog. Even though I will be writing this in my own space, like a diary, it is out there for anyone to see. Will I feel like I have to temper my feelings because they are in the public eye (even if that "public" is just a few close friends and family)? Will I be afraid of the words coming out wrong and offending someone? Will I lose the sanctuary that this blog is becoming for me?